Everything Happens For A Reason

           You know the saying, "Everything happens for a reason"?  I do believe that but a lot of times I catch myself wondering what that reason is.  Why was I abused? What would my life be like if my dad was still around?  How can it be that some people are there for you through thick and thin then all of a sudden want nothing to do with you? Many questions go through my head daily and I often wonder, 'if everything happens for a reason, then why do these things happen?'
           I know I will never get those answers and I just have to trust God but it still makes me feel upset for some reason.  I'm the type of person that wants to know anything and everything haha. But not knowing why something happens in your life is frustrating ya know? I know that I wouldn't be the strong women I am today if it weren't for everything I've been through so I guess that's a positive outcome.  There are inane people in the world that make silly choices that affect you for a lifetime.  But everything happens for a reason, right?
           The verse Jeremiah 29:11 comes to mind whenever I have those thoughts: "For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." Although I will probably never know the reason why certain things happen in my life, I have to remember God has a plan and that he is in charge no matter how many times I try to take things into my own hands,  Despite all the hardships that I have endured (which I'll tell about them someday), I wouldn't change a thing because I would not be the person I am today.

I never really thought that putting down the pencil and letting God write my story would be so hard yet so beautiful at the very same time.