Everything Happens For A Reason

           You know the saying, "Everything happens for a reason"?  I do believe that but a lot of times I catch myself wondering what that reason is.  Why was I abused? What would my life be like if my dad was still around?  How can it be that some people are there for you through thick and thin then all of a sudden want nothing to do with you? Many questions go through my head daily and I often wonder, 'if everything happens for a reason, then why do these things happen?'
           I know I will never get those answers and I just have to trust God but it still makes me feel upset for some reason.  I'm the type of person that wants to know anything and everything haha. But not knowing why something happens in your life is frustrating ya know? I know that I wouldn't be the strong women I am today if it weren't for everything I've been through so I guess that's a positive outcome.  There are inane people in the world that make silly choices that affect you for a lifetime.  But everything happens for a reason, right?
           The verse Jeremiah 29:11 comes to mind whenever I have those thoughts: "For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." Although I will probably never know the reason why certain things happen in my life, I have to remember God has a plan and that he is in charge no matter how many times I try to take things into my own hands,  Despite all the hardships that I have endured (which I'll tell about them someday), I wouldn't change a thing because I would not be the person I am today.

I never really thought that putting down the pencil and letting God write my story would be so hard yet so beautiful at the very same time.

International Dance Day!

           In honor of International Dance Day, here's a collage.  Dance is a major outlet for me and a
pain in my butt at the same time.  haha.  I danced a little bit when I was about 4 then started back up again in 8th grade, I have learned many things from dance; self-discipline and how to have the
endurance and strength as a football player but be graceful at the same time as well as many other
things. Through all of the blood, sweat and tears, getting eyelash glue in your eyes while trying to put fake eyelashes on, finding rhinestones/glitter EVERYWHERE, hours of practice every week for one performance at the end of the year, daily injuries and pulled muscles, I wouldn't change a thing.  I love my dance family and the thrill of performing on stage!

Meeka

           I prefer big dogs, not the little rat dogs that nip at the back of your ankles.   I never was a cat person in fact, I hated them.  I have always been allergic to them; stuffy nose, itchy eyes/skin, hives, you name it.  But the other night, there was a cat who came to one of my mom's coworkers house.  You could tell she has been in a home before but not recently.  My mom's coworker took her to the vet to get her checked out and brought her over tonight to give to us!
           After hours of trying to come up with a name, we decided on Meeka.  My skin/eyes still get itchy but not nearly as bad and that's good because Meeka stole my heart. The vet said she was about a year old and she is so skinny its lugubrious. She climbs up on my lap when I do my homework and cuddles with me and all around puts me in a better mood.  I will probably be one of those people who is single and lives in a house full of cats (totally joking by the way).
           My brother is absolutely in love with her.  Perfect companion when my brother has his surgery in a couple months.  ;)
xo-Megs

T Minus One More Month!

           So today when I woke up, I looked at my phone (daily routine) and saw I only have one more month left of high school! I have a countdown on my phone of graduation and my birthday (they're on the same day).  As I saw the notification many feelings started running through my body.  I was excited, nervous, happy, and terrified.  The thought of never seeing the people I grew up with day-after-day after graduation kind of scares me.
           I've never been good with change.  When my dad was taken away, it was hard to adjust...even going onto the next grade level was tough.  The thought of my best friend being 174 miles away is heartbreaking.  Yes, it could be worse but its still a big change from seeing her everyday at school or at church every Sunday. My family has gotten so much closer in the last five years and leaving them this fall  is going to be such a big change...part of me is ready and there is a big part of me that is not. Also, during my senior year, I have made so many new friends and have gotten close with people and I'm afraid that when we all go our separate ways, we won't keep in touch.  But, as my high school career comes to an end, I'm determined to make the best of it.

My best friend and I at her 18th birthday party

First Post

As I'm in the last month of my senior year of highschool, I decided to start a blog.  This blog is to document the transition from highschool to college and so on.  I will be writing about my days, my past and random stuff in general.  Thanks for tagging along. 

xo- Megs